Take your time ;)

"I can't do this anymore, everything around me are just so dull, I don't know why I'm here. Being a doctor is something that is chosen, not just barely made to be one. Maybe I'm feeling like this because I'm not the one chosen by Him. Maybe He's telling me that this isn't the right path, not for me. Am I the one at fault for not realizing this from the beginning??" cried Nina, weeping all out loudly.

"I should have been aware the idea of doing something out of our passion are totally tormenting. There are so many responsibilities awaits in this medical field, and it's kind of  unlikely me to holding so much of them.

Done spilling out tears, Nina slowly raised her head up and gazed upon her friends unblinkingly, searching for the empathy in their eyes in such desperate. And what she see is, merely the stares of sympathy. Suddenly, she felt as if she had just confessed something unforgivable. Suddenly also she felt she's making an idiot out of herself, telling those sort of junky flawed emotion to such an emotionally-stabled excel girls. 

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Don't worry, its normal feeling those sort of emotion in the beginning. U'll adapt soon. B)

Kembali

 Kerana fitrah manusia itu, kembali ke Rabbi ilahi..

Pernah seketika, daku berdoa pada Sang Murabbi, 

"Ya Allah, aku amat takut akan ujian kesenangan, aku tahu diri aku amat rapuh dengan nikmat dunia. Maka Ya Allah, andai ujian musibah itu mampu membentuk aku yang lebih baik, aku redha... tapi Ya Allah, kirimlah padaku penguat iman ku... Kirimkanlah padaku sahabat-sahabat yang sudi untuk bersamaku, mengirim pesan nasihat untukku, mengajakku kearahMu.. Aku percaya, sahabat yang sentiasa ingat padaMu dan mengingatkan aku padaMu itu adalah sahabat yang terbaik."

Aku suka berdamping dengan mereka yang solehah ini.. Suka mendengar nasihat pedoman dan peringatan. Berdamping dengan orang baik-baik buatkan hati ni rasa nak jadi baik. Tapi aku, yang keras ini, aku sedar, hidup untuk Allah bukan sekadar HENDAK jadi baik, tapi perlu berusaha juga ke arah kebaikan.. malah yang lebih baik, berlumba-lumba ke arah kebaikan... (2:148) 

i cannot run away anymore. i have a dream and i want to make it come true..
for it, i have to force myself because nobody else will if i don't. it's horrible to start a new thing, isn't it? Pray hard for me :)

free away :')

If u knew this strange feeling I felt for you all this time,

 would you still go chasing others who don't.

But maybe the best is having you not and never knowing that,

 because right now, I could barely spare them for you.

I guess, the answer to my prayer is not you. So, fly away. Please do. 

satu dua tiga, langkah pertama bermula~

*ni post pertama ala2 rasmi laa, sebelum ni tu ala2 contengan jalanan je..hihi >.<

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim...
Dengan nama Allah, aku menulis.

Kerna iman manusia naik dan menurun, mereka perlukan peringatan.
Berbekalkan sokongan rohani daripada saudara seIslam, aku menulis.
Pandanglah pesananku bukan aku....

Aku bukanlah sesiapa,       
Aku hanyalah manusia penakut,
Takutnya aku akan mati tanpa sempat menyampaikan,
Takutnya aku mati tanpa menyumbang apa-apa buat islam,
Takutnya aku andai tiada bekalan di akhirat kelak,
Takutnya aku akan menjadi umat yang tidak peduli,
Takutnya aku akan disoal kemana masa mudaku dihabiskan,
Takutnya aku, kembali pada masa silam yang hitam.

Kerana Allah, aku mula menulis,
menulis untuk membaiki diri,
menulis untuk memberi pesan,
menulis untuk mengingatkan.

Tegurlah aku, ingatkanlah aku,
Kerna aku manusia penakut.
Tapi aku punya hasrat, 
untuk menjadi seorang da'ie,
ajarilah aku, Ya Allah..... :)

This is my first step here, ease me, Ya Allah... Rabbuna yusahhil :')
p/s: ini yang menginspirasikan aku!

surah muhammad ayt 7 : "sesiapa yg menolong agama Allah,nescaya Allah menolong kamu..."

*baru, muda, mentah tanpa pengalaman 

written.

welcome shall i say,

this is me,

me no other than me,

pieces of them.

days counted till full,

shall i be reading this,

with moments of new me,

reminiscing old time.

today love say i,

yesterday childhood,

tomorrow works?

shall that to be known.

pieces of me to be left,

to remind me what I've been a,

redirecting to be a,

for what i call values.

written, FAITH :)