Take your time ;)

"I can't do this anymore, everything around me are just so dull, I don't know why I'm here. Being a doctor is something that is chosen, not just barely made to be one. Maybe I'm feeling like this because I'm not the one chosen by Him. Maybe He's telling me that this isn't the right path, not for me. Am I the one at fault for not realizing this from the beginning??" cried Nina, weeping all out loudly.

"I should have been aware the idea of doing something out of our passion are totally tormenting. There are so many responsibilities awaits in this medical field, and it's kind of  unlikely me to holding so much of them.

Done spilling out tears, Nina slowly raised her head up and gazed upon her friends unblinkingly, searching for the empathy in their eyes in such desperate. And what she see is, merely the stares of sympathy. Suddenly, she felt as if she had just confessed something unforgivable. Suddenly also she felt she's making an idiot out of herself, telling those sort of junky flawed emotion to such an emotionally-stabled excel girls. 

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Don't worry, its normal feeling those sort of emotion in the beginning. U'll adapt soon. B)

Kembali

 Kerana fitrah manusia itu, kembali ke Rabbi ilahi..

Pernah seketika, daku berdoa pada Sang Murabbi, 

"Ya Allah, aku amat takut akan ujian kesenangan, aku tahu diri aku amat rapuh dengan nikmat dunia. Maka Ya Allah, andai ujian musibah itu mampu membentuk aku yang lebih baik, aku redha... tapi Ya Allah, kirimlah padaku penguat iman ku... Kirimkanlah padaku sahabat-sahabat yang sudi untuk bersamaku, mengirim pesan nasihat untukku, mengajakku kearahMu.. Aku percaya, sahabat yang sentiasa ingat padaMu dan mengingatkan aku padaMu itu adalah sahabat yang terbaik."

Aku suka berdamping dengan mereka yang solehah ini.. Suka mendengar nasihat pedoman dan peringatan. Berdamping dengan orang baik-baik buatkan hati ni rasa nak jadi baik. Tapi aku, yang keras ini, aku sedar, hidup untuk Allah bukan sekadar HENDAK jadi baik, tapi perlu berusaha juga ke arah kebaikan.. malah yang lebih baik, berlumba-lumba ke arah kebaikan... (2:148)